You can t stop me

When i last blogged , i was thinking about how we as people dominate others ,causing them to make decisions that they would not have made, had we not pushed them into what we wanted them to do. Perhaps we have our reasons for what we choose to do, but do they not have their own relationship with God to work out? What are we doing in that process? But that is not what is on my mind today. i hope i can say well enough to be understood and that i have wisdom to share. That would be up to you to decide.                              We actually ,through Jesus have what we need to  make a decision that is ours. We do actually do always make our own decisions even if it s to choose the path of least resistance.Will i let u  persuade me to do what u or i or God or the devil want me  to do ?   That would actually be my decision. And my responsibility before my Lord.  Jesus did do what i needed to have done to be able to make my own decisions. He gave me the ability to stand with confidence before my Father God s throne and make my request known. The knowledge  that the price for  our sin debt has been paid. i don t really think Father God intended to hold our sin against us , i think because of the authority that He gave man at the time of creation , man' s  rebellion against Love stays here and stands until something changes that, which was done through the sacrifice  of Christ. The Man Jesus Christ  is now King of the Earth. King of kings . He gained the victory over death which also came through the rebellion of disobedience to the creator Love.  I HAVE TO TAKE THE PROCESS SERIOUSLY ENOUGH TO GET WHAT HE  HAS GIVEN ME.  i think at least right now that the base of that is forgiveness. i can only stay; in Gods Grace through the forgiveness that He brought and the knowledge of that forgiveness. i must remember that it is The provision of His Grace that enables me to do what He has given me to do which is to Love. We have to walk in  Love . The only way i can see to do that is through    knowledge of what Jesus has done for us which is basically forgiveness and acceptance of that necessity of life. Father God s Favor which comes through Faith in Him and accepting that He is   who He says  He is  and ,of course the atonement brought through the shed blood of the final sacrifice Jesus  Christ, once and  for all.                                                                                                    

pray

Our fears keep us from the compassion of God. Do we protect ourselves from having to step out into the unknown arena of Faith? Faith in His ability to perform His Word? Or Faith in His willingness to be with us. Did He not say : If you are in Me and I am in you, you can ask what you will and I will do it for you. Well, I must admit that may be somewhat foreign to those of us taught the ways of the world. What are we to do about our mistrust of the Word of God and the power of God? I would say; Stay and pray before Him...To purpose ourselves to do and be what we need to, to get what we need. It s too late to turn back, turning back brings death, to our spirit and our life. Many times we miss even His very move , to the direction of HIS calling because of fear, that so easily temps us to put out too little effort to see the movement of His hand. Do we cause others around us to be forced to fight with us just to be able to do what he has moved them to do? Why so much fear? ,or is it just laziness. or stubborness to have our own way or control of whatever we can.
Then that we may be able to continue in our stagnation. Our safe world that Faith can not change without our will. Why do we? When will we ever stop being afraid?; Will we be free to Love the Grace of God and let others do the same? What will He say to us when we truly see Him, ABOUT OUR INTERFERING IN HIS BUSINESS CONCERNING OTHERS, HIS CALLED ,HIS BELOVED. I FOR ONE DO NOT WANT TO BE IN THAT POSITION, to betray the confidence of my God. What am I to Do? To not stop my brother or sister from entering into His Grace and leaving me alone in my own way. I must decide; will i make them fight to go on into Grace or Faith and leave me here, or let them go ?; or even worse will I be able to stop them ? Probably. What is Father and Jesus going to do about that if their hearts are crying out for HIM? DANGEROUS POSITION TO BE IN ,if u love the life your in.. Which I m sure we do or we would not be working so hard to protect it. We must purpose our selves again to pray and wrestle to win. WE do not want to wait until we forced by His hand to go through the fire that changes us and leaves us standing a chard mess in the midst of our life. That does work but it gets to be someything of a problem. we may even not learn and blame Him. What then? well, I m thankful that He is wiser than I . I must trust in His Grace even to be able to come together with Him.

Why do they love Him ?

Why do they love this Jesus. Doesn't it kind of give u the creeps that they would go on over such a thing as this . They don t even know what they are saying, that they know God,  How can anyone know God?
I don t know if i can speak for WE or THEY, but I just have a knowing. Well i did have one of those near death experiences, . I care not to give the circumstances, partly because i was so stupid as to compromise my  very life. My very breath, in ignorance. First of all, let that be a lesson to you. Don t be dumb like me. I t' s really not something to make light of. although it was a long time ago. I didn t really plan to talk about this but i think some are reading that don t really understand about what i found out so maybe i can tell u what i found through that wrong. I did  raise up to the top of the room and look down at myself on the bed. I thought about what i was seeing . No words were exchanged within myself just an observation that my mind did not really want to recognize. I found that i had an escort that took me into the stars of the heaven. We went on a while, i think i may not have been conscious of time at that point. it didn t seem like a long time went by and i arrived at a place with my very Holy escort.The Holy one asked me if i was ready. i knew what He meant and i took a minute or who knows how long. i knew all things when i was there nothing was hidden.  I thought about my mom who had lost a son who was 19 and she grieved until she almost died and i didnt really think it was her time, and i realized that He was more than kind and also knew all things .So i said to Him, I want to go back and serve you. I knew in my own strength that I could not serve  Him but because i knew all things at that time i also realized that it was not by my own strength that i would be doing that..It seemed like by the speed of light i came back what appeared to be the same way i came,I then was in my room looking down at my body again,I knew that it would feel very bad when i woke up and that i would have to have food. and i did. I told a few people, they didn t say anything ,so i went on my way. It was a very Holy time as i look back. There were some of what we now call devine appointments.Then i just knew i needed to do this and then this  and i knew when to go and how to go . It was like it was all arranged, I WENT BACK TO THE TOWN I WAS RAISED IN BECAUSE IT WAS HOME AND THINGS WEREN'T SO CLEAR. MY LIFESTYLE WAS NOT ONE OF SEEKING GOD .I REALLY DIDN' T FIGURE OUT WHAT HAD HAPPENED FOR QUITE A WHILE. MY MIND SORT OF PUT IT ON THE BACK BURNER,NOT KNOWING WHAT TO DO WITH IT. .BUT GOD WAS FAITHFUL TO CARE FOR ME EVEN IN MY IGNORANCE. I WAS NOW HIS. I FORGOT TO TELL YOU ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED DRIVING MY LITTLE VOLKSWAGON.ONE NIGHT BEFORE I LEFT THAT PLACE. sorry i left my cap lock on.  i may not remember to do it again. I had an encounter with The Holy Ghost is what i deducted later as i began to learn words to understand my happening. .This intense euphoric reality came upon me while driving. i realized that my hands were in the air and i was speaking in some strange talking that i had not heard from my mouth before, I greatly enjoyed this time and did not want to stop  but i think i did. So much JOY I HAD NEVER KNOWN.  I STILL DIDN 'T HAVE A CLUE HOW TO MAKE MY LIFE GO. but i was ok. i was ok being alone not knowing what was ahead. nothing really bothered me for quit a while. Many more things happened that did not appear to be the perfect will of God and i probably would not have know if they had been and a few God thing  which i really didn 't realize either. Jesus did save me from many things. the biggest one being lack of knowledge. and now i'm older and wiser and i look back and i may be fortunate that He was there in His Heaven and that He loved me inspite of myself. and gave me more years. I know i spent many of them learning and some serving the best i knew how with His help. He is such a wonderful Savior and God. I'm greatful to my Father for  letting me Live and can;t really say all that H e did but i'm sure He knows and that is good enough for me.

IS THAT MINE OR YOURS?

I don t have a lot of interest in showing myself great in this or on this because i do know that we see thru a glass darkly or faintly, whatever word that is,  I don t recall. I need to remember that it is my Lord that enables me. How is it that He enables, by my  faith in His blood?   My  Knowing that He took the punishment for my sins ? Does that enable me?  What is my sin?  My attitude of  refusing to accept that His Grace belongs to all men? Is that sin?  Is it   that His blood was not just spilled for me, but for those i don t like? The ones that seem to wallow in their self pity or the ones that don t even try anymore to get up out of their misery? What is mine to do, concerning those ones  born into more darkness than myself?  I could reference the parable of the land owner that hired workers in the morning , and then some at noon and then some in afternoon,later in the day.Yet he paid them all the same. How is this like the Kingdom of God? Perhaps some come into Grace earlier and some later .Is that saying we all get the same mercy? We don t really know what Jesus is doing . We' ll do well to take care of our own rightness with our God. He' s there waiting for us to come to be cleansed .Cleansed from our own vanities and fears.  We can stay in His Grace and allow others to come, thru faith in his provision for them. There seems to be  a necessary   and constant need to remember that it is by his provision at the cross that we attain the promises, we so diligently claim as ours. and they are ours,  if we but trust in His freely given Grace.....   Our Grace.

trust and mistrust

We have words we use to communicate. Perhaps other ways also, but if we do not  look closely with an honest heart, we can see our fellow man as a foe, who is not a foe at all.  Out our own fears  we sometimes judge the action of others as unprofitable to us. Out of our fear we isolate the ones to whom we could be gaining and giving strength .There are those that flatter with a lying heart who have purposed themselves to their own gain .Stay away from them.  It does take a purposed heart to stay in Grace, the unearned Grace that saves us.  By Faith ,believing in the unseen Goodness of God, we receive the things we hope for ,knowing they have been given ,not necessary deserved. Perhaps thru obedience to trust, in Him, we gain the ability to trust each other.